Once again, I am listening to music as I write. I have gotten a late start today. It is now 9:12pm. My phone just rang. I am not answering it. I must get this writing done and I don’t have time to chat right now. I just found out that I am standby for the Transforming Poison into Medicine Conference at the Florida Nature and Culture Center. I thought I was registered. I got a notice from the FNCC Coordinator. I didn’t read past the first sentence. It had congratulated me on registering for the conference. I just saw that and thought that I was good to go. If I had read further, I would have seen that it also said that they received my application and that I was on standby because the conference was at full capacity. If a seat opens up, then they will notify me. I am so disappointed. I already told several people that I was going. I called my friend Erika and explained what happened. She was going into a meeting, so she could not answer my call, but she did see my message. She told me not to give up and I will not do so.
I have fallen through with a few of my determinations. I had told myself that I will write every day for at least 15 minutes. Today is October 1st, so I am determined that starting from now on I will write for at least 15 minutes a day. That is not a big ask. I am making this a priority to do this every night. Tonight is day one and many more days will follow. I don’t know why it is so hard for me to find time to write. I know that many people struggle with fulfilling their objectives. But at least I have a goal to accomplish. Some people live life without making any plans at all. I could not live that way. Self-improvement is very important to me. I am constantly trying to move forward. I try not to compare myself to others. That only leads to unhappiness. Today, I compare myself to the person I was yesterday. I should be my own yardstick.
Well, I have stuck with publishing my blog each week. I have been doing this since May 1st. It has been about five months. I think I will celebrate when I make it to six months. That’s half a year. I will also celebrate again, when I make it to a year. I have been putting myself out there consistently. I sincerely hope that some people who are really struggling are reading my blog and getting encouraged. That would make me very happy. Hopefully some individuals will learn how to become filled with joy by reading my story.
I put my chanting at the center of my life. That is the source of success in my life. Chanting nam myoho renge kyo every morning is very important to me. I know that when I chant for an hour in the morning that I am going to have a great day. Unfortunately, today I woke up very late. It was about 7am when I woke up and I need to be at work by 8:30am. I chanted for about 35 minutes. However, it was not a focused session of chanting. During part of that time, I was getting ready for work. So, it wasn’t even a quality 35 minutes. I did make it to work on time. I clocked in at 8:28am. I felt a bit off today. Even though I did not chant as much as I would have liked, I did not have a bad day. I got a lot accomplished today.
I need to create more time to work on my certification as a peer specialist for New York State. I need to accomplish this by my one-year anniversary. I started back at Western New York Independent Living on April 28th, 2025. It’s already October 1st and the year will be ending soon. I would like to get it done well before the deadline. And it does take several weeks for the application to get processed. I think it can take up to a couple of months. So, really, I should try to have it done by February 28th, 2026, so that I can be certified by my anniversary date. I am feeling very positive about my job. I am glad that I have returned. It was definitely the right move to make, and I am looking forward to what the future will hold!